Breath Just Breath!
These last couple of days haven't been the best but I have had to try and be a grown up about everything! It's actually better when you are a grown up! It's also better when you can say what you want to say and not regret anything!! Yea I am growing up but here's the thing I will always be a kid at heart I guess I just have to find the perfect balance! Something that is amazing in my life right now is I can honestly say I'm not mad at anyone!!! No family members, No friends, No ex's, No one who has ever been in my life! Honestly being mad is a waste of time that you can be happy. I know it's hard sometimes but it's worth it! I'm not saying it is a bad thing to be mad but just don't be mad about the little things the big things you can but the little ehhh trust me I know for a fact that "everything will be okay in the end, IF it's not okay than it's NOT the end!" One of my favorite sayins and one that is VERY true! And I believe that everything happens for a reason. I know that people that were in my life were in it for a reason. And also me getting pulled over and all the bad stuff that has ever happen to me has all happened for a reason!
I'm hopefully going to Provo tomorrow!!! My friend Austin is leaving on his mission in a month and I have to go see him and freaking BYU!!! Oh my shoot me please hahah! Just kidding he's worth it! Besides he has to get my Kristpy Kreams if I go up haha! Besides I miss the kid! He's just a good guy!
Mmmmkkk Tyler update! I am sooooo confused!!!!!! haha I'm just waitin I guess but not really cause if another guy sweeps me off my feet I'm not going to wait. I know he is super stressed! And I honestly feel bad for the guy! But he's kinda left me in the dust and if he isn't ready to have a girl than..... he's not and I'm not going to keep buggin him! He needs him time and everyone deserves to have that! So I'm giving it to him! Wow I use explanation points a lot... Oh well! I like them!
My second aunt died a few days ago... :( I didn't know her to well she kinda let drugs take over her life.... That's kinda the reason why I won't smoke weed! I don't want to have me smoking turn into me wanting other drugs cause I don't want to do that to my future children. Now I am totally fine with my friends doing it I mean it's there life NOT mine! And I am all for people being there own person and choosing what they want to do in life! I let them know where I stand but I won't tell them to do stuff or not to.